Have you Ever felt like a total loser?

have u ever fell in love with a person u always shared ur problems with?

someone that u keep telling ur friends that "she's like my buddy =) " and all that blablabla crap

someone whom u feel as if she's a total stranger, so unfamiliar with her that u never felt a worry spilling to her.

someone who, somehow is always there for you to tell her bout this other person that u "like" and stuff.

well,

Don't you see,

don't you see,that the charade is over?

And all the "Best Deceptions" and "Clever Cover Story" awards go to you.

it just feels as if God is playing with ur feelings.

i mean, she's supposed to be a stranger u tell ur sad stories too and all.

i just didnt expect something like this to happen.

and now i'm in a state of denial, trying to tell myself that its just "a random feeling" cuz she's always here to listen.

meh, it just made things worse.. didnt it? ongjianyau. U fool.

now i feel so lost.

and its getting weird now, cuz since this feelings and thoughts appeared,

i find it so hard to talk to talk to her lately..

i miss her.

i hope she's doin fine now =)

i just wanna talk to her again.

i just wanna end this post before it gets all sad and turning into some bitch post.

and i'm such a loser

signing out,

jy