retarded it is

aaaaa
something's wrong with my blog from my view.
everytime i open it...
my paragraphs and everything else are half sunk to the left of my monitor
and they cant be seen =.=
i tried asking few friends and they said its perfectly fine from their view..
ah fuck wtv it is.. cuz i CANT seem to understand why its like this..
i'll stop blogging forawhile TILL i find out whats wrong..
pissy.
EVEN MY FUCKING SHOUTBOX HAS DISSAPEARED TO GOD KNOW WHERE

A Tune To Share =)

The Perishers - Sway

I talk to you as to a friend
I hope that’s what you’ve
come to be
It feels as though we’ve
made amends
Like we found a way
eventually

It was you who picked
the pieces up
When I was a broken soul
And then glued me
back together
Returned to me what
others stole

I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna make you sway
Like I know I’ve done before
I will not do it anymore
I’ve always been a dreamer
I've had my head among
the clouds
Now that I’m coming down
Won’t you be my solid ground?

I look at you and see a friend
I hope that’s what you wanna be
Are we back now where
it all began?
Have you finally forgiven me?

You gathered my dreams in
When they all blew away
And then tricked them
back into me
You saved me I was
almost dead

i tried scribbling random words , whatever crosses my mind after every word. This was the result. Enjoy =o

FadingHopes`DyingWords`LiesLies&Lies`Emptiness`SelfishReasons`Neglected`Unforgiven`FakeExpressions`UnfalteringUtterlyNuisance`LastKisses`BreakingWalls`BrokenHeart`LifelessRoutines`ExpectationsOfDepression`StabbedHard`ScarletRainbows`PaintThemGrey`MyLifeSeemsGrey`ItAllComesBackToLies`LiesLiesLies&MoreLies`NoMoreLies`GiveIn&GiveUp`AwaitsForYou`AlwaysBeHere`YesImSuicidal`BecauseOfYou`ThankYou`

Miduh yo..

good evening people =)

first of all i would like to apologise to my blog readers for not updating..

like almost a month now haha.
lots of things happened over the past month,
some good, some bad,
to sum it up, wasn't too bad a month! i'm happy =) =) =)

hectic week up ahead,

1. maths test on wednesday
2. meeting on thursday
3. camp on friday~sunday

all i can say is, its gona be a frikkin tiring week for me =(

papa's leaving for china this weekend as well, maynnnn

here's a pic of my papa on his birthday x)

aww papa u look so cute haha! it was a candid shot!!!

HAPPY 50TH BIRTHDAY PAPA!!!!

aside from that, went hometown for ching ming ..

god i tell you, left on friday night hoping to escape traffic.. ended up..

i drove for fucking 5 HOURS in the jam. ARGHHH hate hate hate..

when reach there adi my parents insist we eat.. it was 1am like OMAIGOD LAR PAA!!!! =.="

oh wells, ching ming pictures!!

NOTICE THAT GUY IN SUNNIES! he's my cousin chee mun! he looks so cool right lol! he's single and working x) GIRLS DON'T BE SHY!

RANDOM SHOT FARMER BOY~! lalala! =p

well all and all, wasnt too bad lar ching ming. get to meet up my family and eat good food at taiping!!! but i kinda missed out the time to chill with raffick =(

he came down on thursday but i could only see him on sunday ><

oh well. he's back at kelantan studying now. ALL THE BEST MR.PILOT

OH! HE BOUGHT THIS REALLY JAKUN SUNGLASSES HE CLAIMS TO BE PILOT SUNNIES! BUT BUT.. HE LOOKED LIKE SOME INSPECTOR IN BALAI POLIS AHHAAHAH!!! KAMPONG SIOOOOOOOOOOT!

anyhowwwwww......

aside from those fun times and stuff, hectic week awaits me!

i hope i can catch up with my studies and not slack =/

lemme show u just how tired i look ~.~

AND!!! the stress while thinking POYO expression!

argh haha i look so weird =.=

i hope everything turns out well for this week =S

WAIT!!!

before i end, at least lemme share what my title "Miduh yo" means!

it's a Korean word for "I Beleive".

the reason why the title is Miduh Yo is because, somewhat somehow i beleive..

people can make it through all hard times they are going through =)

i went through some hard times, glad to say its all better now!

good and bad things comes together, like a tied knot haha

life wouldnt be life if its just all fun & games right? OK!

till then, thanks to all readers for being patient reading my blog's contents and waiting for a month for an update ><>

well next update wont be too long i promise =)

til then tata and thanks! <3

undespicable.hatred.lies

i'm not feeling too good .. or rather,
not good at all lately. i don't know why.
lost mood for practically everything.
INCLUDING DOTA. how cool is that.
ya "wow finally u get the chance to quit dota for good"
dumb fucks, if i don't even have the mood for that..
can u image what fuck-tarded crap i'm going through

i feel as if.. if i were to channel all my hatred.
i can create a void powerful enough to destroy even the toughest fighters around.
i feel simply.. annoyed.hate.frustration.
i feel cheated.
i feel weak.
i feel as if this whole world is made out of lies.
and that everyone puts up a mask everyday.

i want to destroy everything.
i want to kill something.
i want to STAB some fucker in their chest so hard.
i want to shove a gun down my own throat and pull the trigger
slowly and gently.

i.just.hate.everything.kthxbai.

to past the time,

well, as most of u know...

jianyau had a week off from college!!!..

sadly.. or happilly i dont know, its coming to an end!

well this holidays for me...

has not really productive =.="
haven't been revising much LOL thou i know..

i need lotsa catching up,

ESPECIALLY ON MY GODDAMN CHEMISTRY!!!

oh wells =)

hasnt been a total waste thou.

met some pretty cool ppl on blueserver, joined a new clan

this clan leader is a pretty cool dude =)

besides that, well i get to do some patching up with some ol' friends, new friends

things i never knew i would do. i did

went to hartamas square for the 1st time haha

saw a frikkin HUMMER there.. god it was huge.. number plate "TV 3"

well, met some new friends there. if i'm not mistaken, they are Mr. Ivan and Jack haha

said somethings i never thought i would've.

i'm glad i did, to her if ur reading this post, i hope we are best friends forever =) i miss you!

aside from that.. met up with some ol' frens!

one of em is AMIR ZHAFRIIIII YOOOOO

hahaha this cool dude/player got a new ride yo, frikkin neo .

mang i hate these ppl with new car @@" make me jealous T_T

well..

HIS PIC NOT HENSEM NOT WORTH LOOKIN AT HEHEHEHHEEEHEHE

hey joking ^_^

also met up with .... SERENA CHUA!!!.. this one fortunately.

snapped a shot with her x)

such a sweet lookin girl right!!! =p

this girl arr i tell u, FFK me dono howww many times <_>

at last got to see her haha. the week before she start lectures.

well serena, ALL THE BEST !!! =)

&&

got to meet up some people i knew for sometimeeee..!!

just never had the chance to see them in person =)

well here they are!!

tadaaaaa!!! hahaha

MISS EMO NEMO!! and MISS PIKYIE!

two very very nice girls =)

sorry ya didnt have much time to catch up with u girls T_T

i actually drove for 2 and a half frikkin hours to look for emo nemo's house in USJ 11 T_T omg i tell you

i hate HATE hate... subang roads =.="

well at least she enjoyed the carbonara in williams . haha YES

I DROVE HER ALL THE WAY FROM SUBANG BACK TO MAYANG THEN SUBANG AGAIN!

gah! oh well =) the things i do for youuuuuuu =(

and ofcourse!@!! MISS PIKYIE!

such a doink ><>

very very VERY good company.. u can talk to her bout almost ANYTHING

i hope i get to meet up with u girls again sometime soonnn,

i'm glad we got the chance to meet up!

well basically that's about my whole week of holidays!

yeap! wasted down the drain stoning at home playing dota and listening to music.

how lifeless T_____T

AND OH BDW, RAFFICK'S COMING BACK ON 29TH!!! ehehe

raffick i mish you =/ come home fasterrrrrrrrr grrr ;_;

well folks, that's all fer nowwww.

the next update is comin' up soooooon andddd...

it'll be on .. PAPA'S 50TH BURFDAY!!!

YESH! me papa is turning 50 tonight at 12 =)

till then, signing out

jy

girl in the summer =)

SHE'S DOIN FINE! makes me happy when i think bout it hehe

i miss her alot, i hope she doesn't read this huu huu

meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet............. *drum rolls*

MS. TAN WEN TING!!!!

HAHAHA dont ask where i got this pic from LOL

she gona kill me upon seeing this.

Wentingz ! =)

she's such a funny girl, never had a dull moment with her around hehe

she broke my heart u know =(

i didn't get to see/talk to her the 2 weeks before she left for aussie, *sighs*

oh wells, seems that things are better now haha

she settled down well, back to her old lazy and lame attitude =p

and u know what???

wenting : i can cook =p
jianyau : really??? what u cook, meat vege?
wenting : i cook rice lar
jianyau : WTF? rice????? that's not cooking. anyone can put rice&water into rice cooker =.="
wenting : my brother do the rest of the cooking!

.....she's uber lazy i tell u

but she's very pretty and a good company =)

i miss the times we spent together when she was back here in PJ
WENTINGZ!!! faster come back le.. i miss u =(

she treated me chocolate banana cake lar. maybe thats why i miss her so much hehe =)

wentingz i hope u come back soon, i wanna see u again =(
*sighs*

since she went aussie she became disgusting =.=

i wont tell what she said =p

but seriously.. HAHAHAHA i can laugh when i think bout it man

take care wentingz u lazy bimbo =p

hope to see u soon!!!! miss u XOXO

signing out,

jy

PS:

-come back soon dear-